My Experience Transitioning from Drug Rehab Back Into Real Living

My Experience Transitioning from Drug Rehab Back Into Real Living

Having relapsed so many times in the past in early sobriety, this time I figured maybe incorporating sober living and aftercare might improve my odds for success


 

I’m one of those people that everyone always looks at and says something like, “She’s such a wonderful girl with so much potential, why can’t she just get her life together once or for all?” I’m that person that no matter how wonderful things are in my life, that little voice in the back of my head seems to always chime in at the most inopportune moments. So often it seems that I put some sober time together, maybe 12 or 18 months, I get back all those wonderful things I lost during my previous relapse and then one day, bang! I’m gone, and everyone in my life is left standing around wondering what happened, again.

I’ve basically been doing the drug rehab circuit for the past 10 years or so, constantly going in and out with each subsequent relapse. With each stint I’ll do 60 or 90 days of treatment. As I complete each round of rehab I start making internal plans of how this time it’s going to be different. The therapists and counselors around me make all these wonderful suggestions about transitioning slowly, living in sober living, getting an AA sponsor or something, keeping my life simple while in early sobriety and so on… It’s aggravating!  It’s aggravating how my existence is constantly paired up with groups of people always telling me what I’m doing wrong. At the same rate, it’s even more aggravating having to endure the agony of relapse time and again.

THAT WAS ME! That was the me of days gone by who simply wasn’t willing to look at the realities of my God-awful existence. I finally reached the point where the pain of addiction and relapse drove me into a new level of willingness. After my last trip to residential treatment I became committed to never repeating this cycle. I listened to the therapists and counselors who wanted nothing more than to simply see my succeed and be happy. They weren’t interested in placating or appeasing me, only to help me see how my “addict mind” was able to manifest damaging thoughts into devastating actions.

Upon completing residential treatment the last time around I immediately transitioned into a structured and upscale sober living home that offered a proactive recovery environment. I remained active in all that it had to offer including, daily meditation and house group discussions, outside therapy & counseling, recovery based social events, yoga, holistic services, etc. I also remained very active in AA and worked closely with a female sponsor. I was committed to changing my life for the better, and boy did I!

What I have today is beyond anything I had ever imaged; I have peace and happiness and love and so much more. Some days are better than others but one thing is for sure, no day, no matter how difficult, is even a fraction as bad as the utter pain of active drug addiction! I am truly grateful 🙂


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